about to take my last blow, but scared like chicken shit!!!
the blow job
this would probably be one of my favorite concoctions. let's start with this as this is how i feel right now.
this is normally served lit, waiter normally serve it flaming in a shotglass
it's a very generous drink i'd say, almost all of the liquor i like are present hehehehe
i had it in FUSION BAR, we were just going over the menu for some treat, i have friends back in iligan who would splurge on drinking. it was one of those nights when we would choose a concoction that we haven't tried. that time i choose BLOWJOB.as said it was served flaming, it was a blast, fine smooth and hot, it was super.
and you might be wondrin why Blow Job and what's the relevance to my state right now..
Honestly, the concoction is like me, gallant, subdued but ballistic once consumed. a glass and you're good.
i feel like ive had enough right now, feelings just overflowin and overwhelming that sometimes it becomes hard for me to contain it. Sensitiv is out, just found out that he is seeing another just last week. good Lord!!! i felt like bursting.i'm about to take my last Blow, but i just can't.
why can't i be selfish? everytime i try to be i just can't, i'm afraid, i feel guilty, even if i'm secretly happy and secretly wished for it to be. what should i do?
like me like Blow Job, containing, giving, subdued, composed, berserk mode inside..